Here I am again surprised that I am like everybody else…with such obvious and transparent human emotions. Nothing to see here. I am conflicted about going back to work. Very excited to have a wonderful job. But, oh, Baby S, my love, my dear, my soul (see, look up going back to work on the Internet, you will find thousands of mommies just like me.) How bittersweet. Will she ever know that I love her so much and that I have not abandoned her?